June 1 2017
Live life outside the void
With every flair I learn a little bit more about myself. I learn about my strength, my pushing points, my fears, my weaknesses, and even my hopes and desires. This current flair has given me clarity regarding my future: I no longer want to live life in a void. I want color, meaning, fulfillment, and memories.
As some of you know from previous posts, I recently started taking Prednisone. Now, I have been on Prednisone a decent amount of times throughout my life, and each time I react in new or varying ways. There was depression, there was insatiable hunger, there was anger, and sometimes when I was really lucky–all three.
This time I decided to get ahead of it. So along with my 200-pill prescription, I picked up boxing gloves. I am not taking classes or learning in any professional capacity; it’s just me, my gloves, my brother, and his training mitts. I will tell you this: if you need an outlet, boxing is amazing. I am already loving it–the sweat, the release, the endorphins, the aches and pains, the power. For a person like me who has never felt powerful or in control, boxing is amazing.
I said I want color, and I meant it; I have been wearing colored pants to work. It is completely outside my comfort zone. I have a “black/gray looks good with everything” outlook on life. (I consider it the Wednesday Addams’ approach.)
If there is one thing I have learned, it is that you have to shake things up. Comfort is great, but living isn’t about a routine. Living is about the expensive, decadent dark chocolate espresso bar, it is about the right turn you’ve never taken, saying the words you never thought you could, and that someday trip that finally comes.
It is easy to say all this, to breathe in the fresh, after-rain air and wax poetic, but doing something about it is another story. So I offer a challenge to you: be daring, be bold, be UNCOMFORTABLE. Live life outside the void.